Finding God

First, God is not lost! So, if you are trying to find Him, you won’t. God will, If He chooses, (And I believe He wants to) will find you! I know that this seems to go against all we were “Taught” in western civilization and in “Christianity” or any other religion or spiritual ways. But, just THINK about it. If “WE” as humans have to try to find God, then “WE” are merely trying to make God fit into “OUR” own conceptions (Whatever they may be) and trying to fit God into “OUR” way of understanding, which of course is impossible! For God will never be limited by our small ideas. A person can seek God in any worldly fashion or method earnestly and will not find Him. Just try “Any” method of connecting with Him, and you will soon find yourself still unable to keep doing it consistently. But, God will not be conformed to anything or anyway any person tries to know Him. His ways and His thoughts are as far above us as the Heavens above the earth. Who do we think we are to try to bring God down to us! The Holy Spirit of God is a gift, like a wind, gentle and powerful! And He will only come to someone, if one desires Him, but ONLY when He chooses to. No human can bring the Holy Spirit of God for any reason or purpose, unless God Himself allows! PLEASE, GET THAT! No, really! PLEASE GET THAT TRUTH! All scriptures on this earth (Any, either eastern or western or other) declare throughout that The Spirit only comes and goes as God wills. And NOT as “WE” humans will. Don’t misunderstand me. It is good and right to “SEEK” God in any way, but the “Finding” is totally up to God, and not us. That “Finding”, coming to “US”, is His business and not ours. Isn’t that an awesome relief? I know what I’m talking about, because I have spent most of my 65 years of life seeking God. Most of my life I have been trying to find a method or way to become and remain “One” with God and have always found myself returning to my evil ways when I least expected it (Or on purpose). So, mostly, I have failed to get God to “Come” to me. I’ve tried everything! I’ve searched everywhere, read all I could, prayed, begged and tried any and everything I could to get God to “Come” to me and stay! But, it does NOT work that way! Does that mean that I am an Apostate or a failure? Not at all, in fact, it means that I am a mere human. And, on the few ecstatic visits of The Holy Spirit that I’ve had I was completely unprepared or expecting them! The “Visits” were AWSOME, yes, but when He left me I felt abandoned and grieving! But, could it be any other way? If God comes, then you KNOW! And when God leaves then you also KNOW! I cannot explain why it is so. All I do know is that “When” God shows up and The Holy Spirit is upon me that I am overwhelmed with it and usually fall on my face in worship. And, of course I want that experience to continue always, but it is also so terrifying at times that I do not! It is therefore, not up to me (Or anyone) concerning it. There are NO Gurus or special appointed Masters or Apostles or Prophets anymore who can help you “FIND” God. That is my point I wish to make. ONLY God can do that. He needs no other person or persons or teachings to “Come” to us! You may read your Bible (Or other Spiritual or Religious books), underline it, cross reference it, etc. until you die and it will not get God to come to you unless He wills it. Stop trying so hard to be holy! (My advice). You ARE Holy already because God made you Holy and not by your own efforts. Isn’t that what Christ said? And, isn’t that what all Holy persons in all history said and sometimes wrote? I am no fool who does not believe. But, I am a fool who mostly is ignorant of God, except for the few times The Holy Spirit has come upon me. I know that there are two forces in life, Good and Evil. That’s about all I know because that’s about all I do. I am like a child begging for more candy wanting God to send His Holy Spirit again and also afraid of the experience because I might die of shock! So, I recommend that anyone “Seeking” God to keep doing that. But, when He comes, watch out! He may turn you upside down in every way you could imagine! You will never be the same (And you will be the same) once that happens.