Suffering/Sin/Death/Life

Regardless if you are suffering or sining in any way, God can and will help and use you. We all have some sin (1 John 1:3-9) and we all will suffer (Philippians 1:24). This is the human condition. And, especially in the Christian earthly life. But, in spite of it (Or, because of it) you are being used by God (Even if you don't know it yet). And, yes you are forgiven and loved by God unconditionally because of what Jesus Christ has done and is still doing. One way of looking at it, is that suffering is a process of growing away from our sinfullness. Sin is breaking God's Law. So, everyone is guilty of that physically. But Spiritually, we are growing tired of doing that and therefore, we become more willing to be free of sinful actions. In our new Spiritual state as God's children sin is no longer controlling us (Even if it is still in our fleshly bodies and in our world.) The Law of God shows us mortals just how evil we really are. But, the Holy Spirit in us shows us how we are becomming more and more Spiritually perfect like Jesus Christ. Our physical suffering and sinfulness is just a means to an end and it won't last forever. We will be free from suffering and sinfulness someday when Christ returns or even if it occurs at our physical death. And, physical death is just a door we pass through to our Spiritual Eternal home. God, through Jesus Christ will determine what and when and where that will be, either Heaven and the New Kingdom of God on Earth or not. The quicker we accept what God has revealed by inspiration from the Holy Bible, the easier and quicker and more happy, joyous and free we will experience now in this life (And Eternally). If you doubt me (And I am not important, only Jesus is) then try to honestly and sincerely pray, read, study and learn to follow God's Word. If you are an unbeliever then what have you got to lose? If you are a Believer then you already know. Either way, at first, you probibly won't understand much to begin with, but God will reveal only what you need to know, when you need to know it.

Hope and Dispair/Depression and Faith

I suffer from great episodes of depression. I often dispair, lose hope and my faith is almost gone. When it comes upon me I start praying fwevwntly. I keep reading my Bible and other religious and spiritual literature even if I do not understand it. As John Newton author of the song "Amazing Grace" said in his last years as Dementia erased his memories, "I remember two things,"I am a great sinner and Jesus is a great Savior." Well said John, so am I. I often can hardly get out of bed very long. I don't work, I eat poorly and seldom exercise. I am tortured often with grief over losses. I have terrible nightmares often, PTSD symptoms of war and violence from my earlier military career. Sometimes I wish I had never been born (Like some of the old testament Prophets). But, I fear God's wrath when such suicidal evil thoughts enter my sick mind. I decided long ago that since I did not create myself and God brought me into this world, that He has the only right to take me out of it and into Heaven. So, no matter how miserable I am, my hope is in God. The other day while on my sickbed suffering and praying, I thought I heard a soft voice inside me saying,"Get up, Eat and Write." So, I did and this here now is what I am writing. I hope and pray these are God's Words and Not from MY crazy mind! I really do not feel like writing. I'm not even thinking well now. The keys on my computer are just moving in my hand. I'm done for now. No more words. I just want to finish this posting with one promise of God's. from His Word, it is in Romans Chapter 8: Verses 15-39. I believe it true and hope you do too.